Fear of money can be a dangerous thing. I’ve experienced this firsthand the past few months. Launching out into a business whithout paid benefits, vacation, or health insurance adds a layer of complexity to our lives that we tried our best to prepare for. And even after getting all of that settled into our budget, let’s be honest, it’s scary not knowing what your paycheck will be every month.
One of the ways fear has creeped into our household has been a lack of communication. I’ve been so focused on growing and learning how to be my own boss that unfortunately I’ve done a poor job of keeping in touch with my wife on a day-to-day basis. (Excuses, I know! but that’s reality right now)
And at the end of the day we both get home with about 10% energy left in our tanks, and that goes toward figuring out what’s for supper and spending time with Rooney. And when she goes to bed, we sit down and realize how little we have left for each other.
Fear creeps in as we start thinking about the things coming up in the next month we’ll have to pay for, and wondering where and how that income is coming in the door.
The crazy thing is that we knew it would be this way before we got into it. We prepped, planned, and talked about it, but didn’t really have a clue until we started doing it.
Planning is good, but living it out is the real deal. We’re learning things we couldn’t have ever learned by “planning.” Same is true with parenting. We had no idea until we were in the thick of it how challenging parenting would be. But, we’ve learned and we’ve grown from it.
Let’s combine both problems… the other night we were laying in bed around 8 PM (Yup, we were exhausted!) and talking about our budget and how we thought December was going to shake out. Well, the whole situation ended in tears because Kelsey wants Rooney to attend preschool next fall, but that requires a deposit to hold her spot.